i dont wanna go there anymore..
POSTED AT 03:59 PM

aisheru

I could go back to every laugh
But I don't want to go there anymore and I
know all the steps up to your door
But I don't want to go there anymore
Talk to the wind, talk to the sky
Talk to the man with the reasons why
And let me know what you find

I'll leave my window open
Cause I'm too tired tonight
to call your name
Just know I'm right here hoping
You'll come in with the rain

I could stand up and sing you a song
But I don't want to have to go that far and I
I've got you down, I know you by heart
And you don't even know where I start
Talk to yourself, talk to the tears
Talk to the man who put you here
Don't wait for the sky to clear

CHORUS

I've watched you so long
screamed your name
I don't know what else
I can say

But I'll leave my window open
Cause I'm too tired tonight
for all these games
Just know I'm right here hoping
You'll come in with the rain

I could go back to every laugh
But I don't want to go there
anymore..

a picture of you
POSTED AT 07:09 PM

aisheru

i saw a picture of you.. that was taken when i was wondering how are you.. you seem to be perfectly fine and happy while i was there thinking why are you ignoring me.. or if im right, hiding. i dont know why at a glance you stop talking to me, you stop asking hows my day. i wonder what went wrong.. i wonder what did i do?

i havent said anything. yet you still acted that way. what more if i admit how i really feel?

i still cant move one since the last time you made me feel like nothing to you.

i still wonder late at night if i still cross your mind. or if you really stop being concerned.

you said youre my universe and that made me wanna be an astronaut. but now im really lost in space..

where are you? what happened? i never demand anything but to be your friend. just your friend.. whats wrong? i cried myself to sleep thinking why. sometimes i wanted to dial your number just to hear your voice, but im afraid you'll reject me..

i really miss you..

that little span of time isnt really worthy but still, i miss you...

youre still at the deepest part of my heart. just there..

i think i have to hide it.. all my life..

Poof!
POSTED AT 10:59 AM

reielle

Well, I'm a year older again.

Got a gift from the company... a red Tumbler..... Yay! Love it.

Im in MOrning shift again... great! Lots of opportunities for non-work related internet usage. hah hah! IDLE!

Happy, happy, happy Birthday to me!

sleepy

Celebration... NOT!
POSTED AT 02:52 PM

reielle

Sweldo. Bday n Pearl kahapon. Kea ngMcdo kme nila MArk, Niño at Pearl sa kabihasnan. Treat q. Ayun. Hndi kz q sasama mamaya mgInom. (sayang.. house party sana... JOWK lng) Kea bumawi n lng aq sa knila kgbi. Sandali lng nmn. C wen kz tatawag daw. Ayun, ngmadali p q umuwi... cra nmn pla ung phone nmen. Haha. Puyat to the max n nmn aq.. Panu.. ngaadik mode n nmn aq sa PSP. Dapat FF Disidia ittry q... kea Lang napansin q n meron plang FF 2. So GAME ON!

Inom n nmn... sayang lng tlga hndi aq mkakasama. Ngpapalit tlga q ng shift bukas pra hndi nila q mayaya mgInom. Pinagbawalan ng kinauukulan eh. hahaha. Gudlak kay Pearl mmya. Bangag n nmn yun pgpasok tom. ibang klase. Straight xa lashing netong week na toh. At gusto p nya mgpainom aq sa bahy nmen sa sabado. Luka-luka tlga. But still... i love her! cheeeeezzzyy! eeeew.

Reasons for celebration:

1. Sponsor c Bryan ng inuman... dahil software engineer na xa.

2. Data analyst na c Oben. wow Probi na a.... (inggit...T_T)

3. End-of-Contract na c Jerome.

4. Birthday ni Pearl.

5. Birthday ni Mark.

6. at Xempre... Birthday q bukas.

Bithday pla ni Rhen ngaun. hanep nmn... mgkakasunod n nga employee #s nmen.. mgkakasunod pa rin ung birthday. Tapos mega Deny pa c Rhen kgbi na hndi daw nya burtday. hmmp. Panshinnnn. hehehe.

Cheers to us all!

how do you know?
POSTED AT 08:31 PM

aisheru

most of the times we will often get confused about how life will turn out after all of the hindrances. sometimes it seems like it doesn't worth it yet we cant stop doing it. often times we think real hard but in the end we came up with nothing to do but to continue thinking and thinking and.. thinking..

i cant believe myself. how i wonder if ever he'll be mine. how i dream i met him earlier. i cant just believe how i wait for him on my way home hoping we can cross each others way. i didnt just do it once but everyday i can. it was all a waste of time. in the end nothing happens. in the end its still the same me, only crazier.

i was guilty at times but still i continue being guilty.

now, what? he wasnt here anymore.. he was gone.. nothing is clear. the only thing that i know is im right on thinking that it is over. but i dont know how..

i wonder what will i feel the next time ill meet him. i dont know if ill just laugh at how i felt, or will i feel more pain. i really dont get it. how those few days ruined my life for months and months.. and months...

but im fine. though it affects a lot of me and my significant other i can still make everything fine.

but not deep inside..

more nakaw
POSTED AT 02:19 PM

reielle

Pauwi galing work, nkasakay sa jeep tulala... bigla n lang hnablot ng mamang nakasabit sa jeep ung bag q. Wala lang. Nakatingin lang aq sa knya... ngulat lng aq nung una dahil ang tulis ng kuko nya... gumasgas pa sa braso q pagHila nya ng bag q... (may pasa tuloy aq...huhuhu...) Hndi nya nahila malamang, dahil ang tindi ng hawak q. Akala nya cguro mgugulat nya q at mpapabitaw sa bag q qng kakalmutin nya q. Engot. Mga 2 seconds din cguro nya pilit hnihila ang bag q. Nakakatawa. Kz feeling q wala nmn kaEffort effort ung paghila nya dahil wala rin aqng kaeffort effort hilain pabalik ang bag q... o talagang mlakas lang tlga ang grip q. As usual. Ayun n nga... bumitiw rin xa... dahil nga tatalon lng nmn cla ng kasama nya... Eh nShock cguro xa na hndi nya naagaw ung bag q... ayun, PLAKDA xa sa kalsada.

After nun, nakiusyoso na ung mga kasama nmen sa jeep... Aq, parang wala pa rin. KEa lang, more kwento na tong katabi q sa kaliwa na xa tlgang nakaupo sa may duluhan. Kesyo nkilala nya daw ung isang lalake, nahablutan na daw xa ng bag nun dati... kaya itinago n nya sa bulsa nya ung cp at pera nya. Bida-bidahan xa. TANGA! BOBA! Kilala nya n pla ung isang snatcher.. hndi pa xa ngsalita... Baka sinakal q xa qng totoong nSnatch ung bag q ng tuluyan...tas more kwento pa xa ng gnun saken. Selfish. Inisip nya lng ung sarili nya. Hndi ba nya naisip, panu n lng qng ung 2 matanda sa harapan nmen ung npili ng 2 snatcher. Ayun... nanggigil lng aq tlga sa bruhang babaeng katabi q. Dun lng aq ngkaron ng reaksyon. NO wonder nSnatch ung bag nya before. More kwento xa... more isnab nmn aq s knya. La na nkikinig.. kwento pa rin xa ng katangahan experience nya.

Hndi q lng malaman qng baket sa dami ng tao sa jeep... sa pngalawa s dulo nmn aq nkaupo... aq pa ung npili nila. Hahaha. Barya, ung cp qng luma, 3310 ni wen (dahil ngpalit muna kme ng cp nung sunday), baunan, at payong lng nmn ung laman ng bag q. Cguro dahil mukhang tulala nga q. Mga engot! Hndi nila alam, marame na qng experience ng nakawan at holdapan sa jeep. Xempre kahit tulog p aq... nunca nila maagaw ung bag q. Baka sipain q pa cla palabas ng jeep. At cguro akala nila sweldo... kz mismong sa labasan ng office nila nmen cla ngaabang.

Speaking of nakaw issueness... ngkwento na saken c Pearl. May ngyari n pla sa knila ni Mark nung huling andun kme sa bahay nila. Hndi na q ngulat... DAhil naisip q n rin tlga un... ayon sa reakyon ni Mark pgbaba nila sa first floor. Nagulat lng aq nung cnabi nya na naulet p pla un. At ayun n nga. hndi na xa bata. Pwede n xa gumawa ng bata. Hahaha. C pearl na walang malay dati... meron na. hndi n kelangang pagalitan...alam nmn nya gngawa nya... at sabi nya ginusto nya un. One night stand (este 2 pla) sa isang taong hndi nya maxado kkilala. Isa rin plang magnanakaw c Mark. hahaha. Magnanakaw ng kamalayan. toinks.

pagod
POSTED AT 07:57 PM

reielle

la lang. Napagod kz aq kahapon. Ang aga q p nmn nkarating sa knila. Nginom daw cla 2 ni Balong kz naamoy q Amoy-alak xa. haha. blah blah times two. Knwento q sa knya ung buong Season 1 ng TrueBlood. hahaha. NAtatawa kz q sa char ni Jason Stackhouse. ayun. nkwento q kz na naeskandalo kme ni Jean nung unang pnood nmen dahil R-18 pla un. wala mn lng ngsabi samen. hahahaha. Peram daw. haha. Praning. Tapos tinext xa ng boss nya na may pasok daw xa. Ayun, late n nmn xa.

Attend ulet aq ng church. Mejo mahaba n nmn preaching ni Pas pero ok lng kz interesting nmn ung topic. About sa Halloween at certain beliefs related don. Kahapon q lng ulet nkita c Dimple kea treat q xa sa may Total after church.

Ngkita n lng ulet kme ni wen sa megamall as usual dahil may trabaho xa. Pero bago yun nkasalubong q muna ung Supervisor nmen dun. Small world! Ewan q ba dun, hndi q xa napansin agad... kz malayo ngA tingin q kakahanap ky wen... tas ayun, nagulat n lng aq nasa harap q na xa... ngiting ngiti... eh di aq nmn ngiting ngiti rin. haha. tsismax xa saken...kz may kasama xa. cnu kea yun...hmmmm.

More kain n nmn sa KFC. MOre libot n nmn sa Dep store. More tambay n nmn after. Tas may holdapan pang nganap dun sa isang bus... c kua kz bigla n lng ngtatakbo ppunta samen ni wen habang nglalakad, sumisigaw ng "ung bus hinoldap" times two pa yan. tas ayun nga. May 3 mama na bumaba ng bus... tumawid pa sa gitna ng Edsa dun sa tapat ng mega, wala nmng daan dun. Para-paraan lng tlga cguro pag mtindi pangangailangan mo. Sweldo ba???

Pgdating q ng sucat... more antay aq ng jeep. Wala! Ayun... sumakay n lng aq ng fx... antagal mapuno, tas biglang ngdatingan ung sangkatutak na jeep. badtrip. Pero bago pa yun, nkiusyoso p q sa kaguluhan doon. Kz ung isang mama...duguan all over his body, nasaksak ata... more iyak ung mga kasama nyang friends at kaanak. Hahah. Pero qng titignan mong maigi, sa braso lng ung hiwa nya. ikinalat nya lng sa katawan at binti nya para mukha xang kawawa. hehehe.

Anu bang ngyayari at ang daming kaguluhan sa paligid... Phew. more usap lng kme ni wen sa landline pgUwi q ng bahay.

Santi
POSTED AT 02:08 PM

reielle

Tambay dapat kme sa apartment nung Friday. Actually, tumambay nga pla kme. Mgiinuman dapat... Eh antagal nila mgDecide... tas tumawag pa c Wen... umuwi tuloy aq ng bumabagyo. haha. Tumakbo p tlga q. Kea basan basa pantalon at sapatos q. Pati jacket...khit nkapayong aq. Wala pang masakyan. haha. kulet p ni wen. tawag ng tawag...hnggang sa makauwi n nga aq. Usap lng sa fone hnggang 2am. Ayun n nga. Pinaalam q n rn na may lkad dapat aq ng sabado...ksama mga dati nmeng ofismates sa Malate. Ayaw. haha. Eh di hndi. Tas ung celebration nga this coming nov 5, ayaw nya rin aq payagan. Ok.

Tas ngicing n lng aq dahil brownout around 5am. Di n q nkatulog dahil sa sobrang lakas ng hangin. Maingay literally. Akala mo may nglalakad na mgnanakaw sa bubong ng bhay nyo. Kea tumambay n lng aq kela Jean hnggang mgUmaga. Dun n rin nkialmusal.

Tinext q n lng cla Ces na hndi n q mkakapunta ng Malate dahil brownOut at ayaw aq payagan umalis kunwari. Ewan q qng natuloy cla. hahaah.